#that and im sick rn and i cant work tomorrow

[abrillustrated]

yay i love being financially attached to a baffoon who keeps forgetting to pay for the class he said he would pay for, and putting a hold on my account so that i cant register for classes and now all the classes i need are full!! so awesome!! meanwhile my younger brother is not having this problem.

[wizardnuke]

hhbh

[leafywillow]

sometimes you just need to lay on the couch and listen to acoustic songs in the dark

[zoppzoop]

GAAHAHHHHH

[parad-ice-lostandfound]

The seasonal depression is hitting me hard but not harder than my perfectionist tendencies and my guilt at not doing what I promised to do <3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[psychokatrixxxy]

I feel like shit cause I'm sick.

I need to study for a test tomorrow.

I go to amazon music to listen to music while I study.

All of my downloaded songs are no longer downloaded 🙃

[savethepinecones]

pretty sure ive sneezed upwards of 20 times today, my throat feels scratchy, and one of my ears feels like it needs to pop. im starting to think this might not just be allergies

[phagodyke]

feeling like maybe screaming as loud and long as I can and falling to the ground and hitting it until I start bleeding or I finally get some attention whichever happens first. who's in

tf is up with me and randomly bursting into tears on weekend afternoons

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

aita for asking my mum to clean out the kitty litter trays even though its usually my chore

i drove to doctors and work this morning, i worked 8.30 till 5 she worked 8.30 til 4 and drove home after her shift ended to pick up my dance clothes for me (i only didnt have them because i had to stay late at work since 3 people went home sick).

my friend cancelled on me for dance tryouts so i spend the afternoon crying and eventually choose to go anyway because i was excited for hiphop but by this point my head is pounding.

i get out of work, she drives me to dance and goes to get macdonalds while she waits for me to get out. halfway through dance they mention we are not even doing hiphop today not until next week (u have to pay for the tryouts btw)

i get out 7.40ish. on the drive home im thinking "fuck its almost 8 i havent done any uni study, (i have 2 lectures, a quiz and like 8 readings that need to be done today and tomorrow), i havent spent any time with our cats or cleaned their litter trays yet."

for reference we have new cats and are introducing them into a house with a dog so rn we have them in one room and let them out occassionally while putting the dog out back, while i clean out the litter trays and top them up every day, once a week we empty them completely and clean them out

so we get home and i say "would it be too much to ask if you could please do the litter trays tonight" i try to explain that i have a headache and ive still got a lot of uni homework to do and i havent spent any time with the cats so i'd play with them for a bit while she cleans the trays and then do my homework

immeadiately she starts yelling at me that shes tired, she hasnt been home from work all day, she did it last time, shes done so many favours for me already today and blah blah blah.

the way i see it, first, i clean the kitty litter trays every day and vacuum their room. she has literally never done this, she emptied out and washed a tray last week because i was sick and got home from work and passed out. i (a learner btw so im very stressed when i drive) drove us to her appt and then to work, i worked more hours than her today, i danced all night with a headache, i also have not been home all day, after being cancelled on and then them not even doing the type of dance i wanted to do and i still have to do uni work tonight so i dont think im the selfish one here.

but sitting in my cats room while they eat their dinner i can hear her storm about and slam doors because shes so mad at me but i dont understand am i in the wrong here?

also literally as i am writing this she comes out and goes "tell me when youve finished dinner so i can let the cats out. and DONT leave it too late" while my food is literally cooking as we fucking speak jfc.

i have a bit of a diary where i write when mum is mad at me because if i mention to her that she upset me it never goes well so i write it down to safely let those feelings out and as i was writing this one i just needed some clarity i really cant fathom any reason for her to be mad except egocentrism so perhaps an unbias outsider can shed light?

What are these acronyms?

[gallivich]

21 jan

2025 #8

HAI TUMBLRRRRR

today was so mf good i had the best day like . ok nothing that special happened just everthing was good :) like i pretty much did ZERO work the entire day in art we didnt even have to do anything i just chatted with friends YAY in home ec we didnt have to do anything either we just went on chrome books and i was literally playing yttd with my friend. god i love her erm and we were just chatting all dayyyy bff actually!!! in geography just did a little drawing and sub so no seating plan!!!!!!! and in technology just went on ipads and played piano tiles ARE U KIDDING IM SO HAPPY MAN

lowkey upset tho i have no school tomorrow ffs I LOVE SCHOOL U DONT EVEN GET IT god i mention my love for school in every entry sorry... im so weird ok IDK WHAT IM GONNA DO TOMORROW NOOOOOOOOO I HATE BEING BY MYSELF A WHOLE DAYYYY

ughhh i wanna go back out i hate being home at my mums. like i love my mum i just have no one to talk to here but at my dads theres always people and places to go i miss it brooo i wanna go on a walk but theres no pavements or anything just road!! and its so far away from everywhere else aswell i canttt

i think i need more like online friends for when ive got no one to talk to but idk where to find them!!!! like im so lonely and yet when i find friends i end up never texting them bro. im so bad!!

anyway now i wanna watch to all the boys ive loved before then hopefully thatll escalate into me watching xo kitty coz i watched the first film and i freaking love it :P me trying to mention as much media as possible into my posts so i can add more tags! oopsie!

im tweaking coz wdym next year im turning 15 WDYM IM NOT STILL 9. WHATTTTT no ill actually be sick thats disgusting

UGHHHH WHY DOES NO ONE LIKE ME ok ill stfu now

im gonna kms if i dont get shadow milk cookie on crk. or any beast. ITS ABOUT FUCKING TIME PLSSSSS my team is SOOO WEAK and ive been playing for ages

omg i love hot water bottles so much they r so cozy and warm and i hate how i cant constantly snack i just wanna eat and not have to deal w the consequences:( idk what to post on tiktok i love it there but my minds so blank omg its open night tonight for my school IM GETTING THE WORST FOMO EVER EVERYONES THERE. im starting to wish i went UGHH instead im bed rotting alone (hope no one gets mad for me using that term LOOOL)

oui oui adios guys i love duolingo and doing duolingo at school its so peak (yttd better thooooo)

ANYWAY GOOD DAY i could yap for days butttt i wont. hopefully nothing else happens today coz im posting this at 7pm. LOL ok i miss everyone rn im sad. cheeky ass nostalgic song choice + me and who gif choice (i know who..... no not rlly he thinks im freaky (probably?))

byyyyyeee tuuuummmblrrr!!!!

youth - daughter

[videostak]

so sick of having my entire life being dictated by having to accommodate for other ppl who then go to shit on my life even more. like having to watch the doors anytime my dad is in the house having my mom keep every1 up thru out the night and acting oblivious to how someones sleep schedule is affected by the sounds of food being made in a microwave at 12 am or hearing 2hour long drunken phone calls from her room to the hallway to the bathroom to the kitchen etc and having in general let ppl know beforehand what i have planned for a day just so they can reveal that they were never even listening to what i told them or just straight up did not care and do their own random impuse thing that i then have to build my schedule around . like fuuuuuck you. only word on the tip of my tongue atm. genuinely no reason to try to be cooperative or understanding if they dont even ATTEMPT to do the same. i mean atleast i get to sleep in but thats only after they come back at like 1 or 2am. and forget abt me my sister literally works at 10 2mrw and has to get up early to get ready and my mom just shat on that despite my sister telling her immediately she brought up the idea of going somewhere for drinks. i feel so sorry for my cousin who like tries her hardest to be nice or like a inbetween ground just to have my mom creepily vent to her and overall make her feel extremely uncomfortable telling her rly in depth stories and secrets abt ppl who told my mom personal stuff in confidence not thinking my mom would immediately tell absolutely any1 the moment she felt the need to have a conversation. am p sure shes drunk rn cause she sounded very drunk and is just being v loud rn so like im sure she got drunk and then wanted to go to a bar to drink more and not have to worry abt getting caught. :| i mean idk if shell take my sister to work tomorrow but if she is too fucked up too then i guess ill just have to take her. but rly just insanely annoying shit. she refuses to go to therapy or somewhere where u address being dependent on alcohol so i think the only real tangible solution atm is to just give my all to cleaning out her room and then just monitor her like a hospital patient constantly. for the foreseeable future. its hard cause she spends all her time in her room and gets mad when i try to clean it and then my dad gets mad at me when i dont clean it and then when i do clean it my dad gets mad that we dont have any space for half the shit in her room or if we do idk where it goes cause im not even a very good cleaner its just 99% of the stuff falls on me cause no one else does it consistently. so like i just go back and forth at them both giving me shit so fuck everything huh. not in an awful bleak mood but regardless things on both fronts are v bleak. guess im not in an awful mood cause worst case scenario tomorrow i drive my sister to work which gives me more chance to drive and im rly rly looking forward to practicing in my actual manual car... cause its so pretty. so like im not at the end of my rope quite yet and dont think things will get super bleak. worst thing is me losing my job but dont think thats gonna happen quite about yet. and if it does ill atleast have the ability to drive places. so i cant say i didnt grow in some way

[lqfiles]

WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK WHOLE HOUSE JOLLY

okay so i’m on vacations and i wasn’t expecting any updates and also i’ve been so busy and tired so i didn’t check tumblr since like a month ago and why no one told me you updated like ten times since the last chapter i read……

chapter 54: satanic mind manipulation

we LOVE pathetic men but i’m the nostalgic doomer i fear….

why would he send her that to check if he’s blocked like he could have just said hi or something 😭 and yangyang being so petty…. we love you king

mark is so funny i want him so bad

chapter 55: cucklord

jaemin asking for money his ass is nawt serious like have some shame????

“anything for you” GODDD BRING MY FAMILY BACK PLEASE

noooo not him feeling like it would be too much to ask her to watch the episodes together and her thinking he wasn’t interested enough im going to be SICK i can’t do this anymore 💔 and rei as always being so wise we love you cutie pie

MARK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 not him scheming with yangyang they are real ones but also yy calling him a cucklord is DIABOLICAL 😭😭😭😭 i seriously love him (your humor)

chapter 56: when you kinda gaf

nooooo why would haechan block yangyang who is going to be a hater now ☹️ also i wonder how (old) y/n would feel if she knew about jaehyun (kinda) knowing about her love life now she dgaf

“i really miss you ngl” we should all just kill ourselves idk

“missing #her meanwhile she’s probably sleeping rn” killed myself 41 times in my head this past hour. she’s so brave for asking him directly i could never

karina and jaemin not supporting her i hope they know im on their walls.

not related to ptp // riku finally being back we fucking cheered i missed him so much i was starting to go insane

chapter 57: when you been thuggin it out for so long

4572 likes what do y’all know about him. also officially going insane rn cause haechan black hair is my favorite color on him like he makes me feel insane things

i love when he says things outta pocket and shes like excuse me? so he apologize and starts pretending to act normal again

her admitting and understanding her feelings i’m so proud of my pookie she deserves to be happy and oh my sweet and wise reí we love you i really owe you my life

chapter 58: a second try

FINALLY THEY ARE (kinda) HAVING THAT MUCH NEEDED CONVERSATION

“hyuck” OH 😭☹️❤️‍🩹😭🥰😢❤️‍🩹😍😁😅❤️

“i'm really trying to stay nonchalant about this right now but i'm lowk about to jump in the air” in fact he couldn’t be more chalant ❤️

“YIPPIEEEEE” OH GOD WE LOVE LOSER MEN

“i've been missing you this whole time but this is making me miss you even more. i can't wait to see you” REAL MALE YEARNING IS OFFICIAL BACK

him reacting like that to her calling him good boy… why am i lowkey smiling rn

she LOVES him MY GOD LIFE IS SO GOOD and mark i need you to stop being jealous is officially over for you now you’ve done your work and you can finally rest

they hugged and she is in his house on his bed watching family guy together again AND he’s sleeping next to her i used to pray for times like this

NEW HAECHAN HAIR NEW BEGINNINGS NEW UPDATE NEW LQFILES THEME NEVER KILL YOURSELF SMILING THROUGH IT ALL CANT BELIEVE THIS IS MY LIFE

hiii sweetie pie i hope february is treating you well and you’re healthy happy and having enough time to rest<3 i LOVED the updates so much and can’t believe we’re finally here !!! read you later, have an amazing rest of the week ❤️

also adding a written part as a bonus oh lqfiles my queen you’re so generous with us BUT not to be that kind of person but tomorrow (feb 13) is my birthday…. can we get a new update?😁 (i know we won’t since im sending this so late but a girl can dream) mwah ily

MY AEGIBEAR….. i’m sorry pls take this update i’m gonna post as a late birthday present 💔 urgh i feel bad but i hope you had a spectacular birthday and had looooots of nice food and fun and went out and did something enjoyable OR stayed in and enjoyed your time inside, i hope you got lots of presents and everyone showered you with birthday wishes 🥹🥹 i love you and appreciate you for always coming here and even making time during your holiday!!! #IsaIsIrresistibleDay would’ve been the bday tag IF I WAS ON FREAKING TIME. i hope february has been treating you well, for me it’s been meh it could always be better but we are MANAGING. urgh anyways let me dissect your lovely paragraph

chapter 54: HDJDHSJDHS he did it on a whim tbh like he just let his hands roam around and BOOM that random keyboard smash was his first introduction back. this goofert. also i’m crying so bad at the fact that every time you guys call mark funny you add that you want him so baddhdjshdjdh WHEN HE FUNNY AND SEXYYYY #WeNeedThaT

55: i was having a balllo writing that little moment where they both were like “why didn’t he do that” “why didn’t i ask that” LIKE GOSHHH BRING OUR FAMILY BACK BY TONIHHT OR WE WILL END IT ALL. mark and yanfyang are such instigators liekdhfjdj one is put on earth to torment y/n while the other torments haechan like THESE BASTARDS- and thank u for loving my humour wait 🥹🥹💗 truly the way to my heart btw…

56: YN WOULD WANNA KILL HERSWLF IF SHE FOUNF OUT JAWHYUN KNEW. i mean she knows that haechan and jaehyun are kinda tight because of that birthday surprise but if she finds out he gets all the tea on what happens in his love life then… oh it’s about to be ENDED. lowk we should’ve all killed ourselves ages ago. jaemrina are just rlly skeptics log haechan because they don’t like seeing y/n sad and he caused her a lot of pain 💔💔 it’s okay they’ll get over it!! AND SIS IVE BEEN SO GEEKED OVER THIS RIKU RETURN LIKE FERKKK INJECT IT IN MEEEEE riku you mean the world to us welcome back kingie 😭😭🤍

57: my actual soulmate. i do not play about black haired hawchan either and when that mullet combo comes into it… ouh don’t mention it near me i get weird crazy 😂✌🏽 HDJFHSJDHWJ he’s trying to test the water and realise this isn’t a safe zone yet like try it in a few months when you two are together king… and REI DESERVES HER FLOWERS AND WE ALL OWE HER OUR LIVES SHE IS THE TRUE MVP OF RHIS ALL. this queenka😭

58: we just love very chalant loserish make yearners who get giddy over their girl not being mad at them anymore 🥹 i was so happy to write them normal again like we are so freaking back why do we suddenly love life so bad omg… they’re such cuties i adore them (i created them). and LMAODHSIEJ hyuck got a taste of his own medicine and went wait why did that kinda feel good- who’s a good boy… haechannie is!!! she really does love him like she couldn’t pretend like she didn’t anymore and now that she know haechan does too she feels so giddy!!! AND HEDISHDKSH MARK IS JUST DOING IT TO TROLL it’s an engagement bait~ tho he will miss it a little… that was his cookie first 🤦🏽‍♀️

urgh i seriously love you so much i hope life is treating you rlly well and that you’re always happy and healthy and i missed you and i love you and YEAH HAPPY LATE FREAKING BIRTHDAY QUEEN!!!! user lqfiles hopes you’re doing well~ 😛😛😛💓💓💕😘😘💋💋👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

[sendmewatermemes]

So last year saturday before christmas i woke up sick. Was supposed to go to christmas parties and do volunteer work that week was really looking forward to it all. Even the week of work before christmas i was looking forward to. Its meant to be mostly cleaning which is a nice change of pace. Put some of our music on and chill out working with some of the guys i dont usually get to spend that much time with but i get along with very well. Apparently the boss came in and made cocktails for everyone. Sounded like it was a really good week.

But instead i was at home dying then spent the next 3 weeks not being able to breath cause chest infections and asthma are so much fun. At the same time nana was very sick and going down hill. Both of us at christmas just out of it on the couch together. A few months after that we lost her.

Rest of this year ive lost another family member and a pet. Ive had at least 2 friends try to kill themselves. A big fight between friends that had police involvement. And so much other shit just keeps happening.

But hey at least christmas time coming up right, christmas parties, a 50th party, volunteer work ramping up (i do christmas wrapping for a charity every year and it starts november but its pretty quiet until like week or so before christmas which is when it gets fun and im good and fast at it and have been doing it for like 12 yrs so im pretty reliable and a good asset for the busier days which is evident by the fact they kept throwing shifts at me which i gladly took.)

And oh look i wake up friday just gone, just over a week left til christmas and im fucking sick again. Ive missed out on parties im missing out on everything i missed out on last year again. My uncles funerals tomorrow and i cant fucking go. My period started today and i feel even worse and meds arent fucking helping. And i just keep getting more bad news from friends and family.

Im so fucking tired, this last week was the one thing keeping me going to get through this year now im just miserable and sick and crying and almost throwing up everytime i have a coughing fit. I just want this shit to end i wanted to be at work to be with friends but im fukcing isolated at home. I dont even have the energy to talk with friends over text half the time rn god i love them but i cant be there for them and i feel like shit for that too

I just cant rn

[kamikazeonwings]

i hate being sick i feel so inconvenient rn. i cant cough the way i need to when im alone because it scares me but i feel bad waking my sister up with it, especially considering she has work tomorrow

[sehunniepotwrites]

HAAAAAAAI i'm so glad i could bring a smile to your face in your day through my messages heheheheh ☺️ how was your day today!!!

omg is this telepathy or what! i was just considering and thinking of whether i wanted to pursue a masters after finishing up my undergrad degree studies!! hehe what's your masters in if it's not too private to ask 🫢 i was just thinking of doing masters because of my current timeline!! it's rly rly tuff to find a job here after graduating because the mkt is currently just kinda meh :/ so i was just wondering if perhaps going for masters would put me in a better spot!! but then again masters is something i can decide at a later time so rn im just gathering opinions from ppl who have taken it! wbu!! do u have any thoughts or opinions? :")

OMGGGGGG have i mentioned im a SUCKER for childhood besties concepts cuz that's just so so so cute 🥹🥹 I LOVE IT I CANT WAIT!!!! 😍 and my goodness how r u alw so creative w your ideas??? iM so unimaginative that like stories alw amaze me 🫢 hehehehe and HELLO wdym u have a life like a fic odnfoenfoke THATS SO COOL AND SWEET N LOVELY gosh i'd WISH i had like one thing from a fic ever happen to me 🥰🥰🥰🥰

AHHHH im so glad u could meet your friends and hang out together!! wish u had as much fun as u possibly could!! hehehehe how nice would it be if we could always be hanging out w our besties and just spending time together 🥺 hope you guys r meeting again soon!!! sounds rly rly fun to karaoke together it's been so so long for me to both karaoke and meet my friends cuz literally everyone im close to or care about is on exchange this semester :/

which brings me to my never ending rant of how despresso espresso i am this semester >< it's a rly tuff time in my life rn cuz im trying to navigate and find an internship that matches both my interest and my degree cuz it is a graduation requirement for me 🤡 i guess im at least getting somewhere w the search cuz i did have a pretti good offer lately! and im currently just pending the outcome of another role i interviewed for under the same company before making a decision (if i do get offered by the other role too heh) 😊 but then im just rly rly LONELY this semester and im just sad cuz im attending classes and doing everything by myself :/ and i dont have friends arnd locally rn that i could meet and just unwind after a period of stress so its rly draining me a lot on top of my never ending assignments projects and exams 🥲🥲 and yea ldr is so so tough and its so hard to keep my emotions in check because of how big of an overthinker i am so im always just having sleepless nights, constant nightmares and sometimes even sleep paralysis 🥲 i guess im becoming more independent from this whole experience though! forces me to become a whole even without everyone by my side and to continue living and functioning, doing what i should be doing!

i love coming to talk to u and reading all your responses too!! 🩵 m alw looking forward to your replies and your kind words to me hehehehe keeps me going!!!

love, 🍑

i've spent the weekend in bed becuase i'm sick again! i binged s2 of the summer i turned pretty and i cried a whole bunch. i love how they really took the angsty route this season--really showed how diff people deal with grief! probs gonna call out tomorrow because i've been sneezing like crazy and my voice is lowkey gone ;; i think i'm gonna try to get some writing done and post a teaser for a story that may never be completed but it's too good to just stay in my drafts!!

oh sure, i have my masters in education. i went thru a one year ma program with a teacher's cred tied into it too. my program was unique in that they condensed a two year prog into one accelerated and it was the toughest year of my life tbh. working full time as a teacher and going to school full time for basically two degrees was tough.

i love all my ideas but i haven't been able to finish them!!! i really want to get them out to the world bc theyre too good to sit in my drafts but it's so incomplete!! the one i am thinking about posting can be a standalone because its such an open-ended ending but there's still WAY more planned for it.

if you have time, playing games together online is a good way to keep in contact. we played pictionary on a website and it was super fun during the pandemic a lot!

it looks like youre slowly getting your ducks in a row for the internship despite the stress! but i see how missing your so and friends can affect your mood. feeling alone is never the best feeling and i totally see where you are coming from. but look at you, you're already looking at the positives out of your stressful situation! that's so great! you can only go up from here, you know? and listen, this is something i always tell my students, each person has their own timeline--their own time to make mistakes, to figure out what they want or need, etc. you may take longer than others but you don't need to worry about others. worry about you and focus on the things you can do for yourself to make you better. and if you make a mistake, that's just a lesson you can take. it's all about your growth mindset!

love u lots!!!